He Died.

My paternal grandfather passed away yesterday.
But this comes with mixed emotions.
1) Because as of earlier today, I didn't even know his first name. Which Im sure at one point I was told his name, but it was not stored in my memory. That is how irrelevant he has been in my life.
2) He had 15 kids. My grandmother had 8. He had 15 kids. My grandmother was married to my grandfather until the day she died last summer(it should be mentioned that I am the exact replica of her). Pappa was a rolling stone. Even worst the city they lived in was 7.3 sq. miles. In the Mississippi Delta...Cleveland to be exact. My grandfather even had a child with my grandmother's sister.
3) I only have two memories of him. The first was in the summer when I went to visit my maternal grandmother(she lived in cleveland as well), I was in the car with my Aunt and she says, "hey there is your grandfather, mowing the lawn at the church". So we had to stop, which im sure i didnt want to, I spoke. He seemed to be a jolly fat old man, but still felt no connection. I mean you could have pointed out any man and told me that was my grandfather. I think I was around 7.
The second, had to be one holiday when we were in Cleveland. Probably Christmas 2006. My mom asked if I wanted to go see my grandmother on our way back home. I didnt mind. Although I never liked going there. between you and me. So anyhow when we pull up there is the skinny man somewhere between laying and sitting on the bench by the front door. Anybody could have mistaken him for dead. I think he eyes were rolling in the back of his head, and they were yellow(always a sign of sickness) with a hint of red.He began to move from the bench as we procceded to enter the house, but he went in a direction opposite from us as if he had not even notice anyone was there. I had to be told that was my grandfather. Since he had lost a drastic amount of weight.
Those are my two memories.


And so last summer when my paternal grandmother passed away, I attended the funeral. At this funeral I learned about all the kids outside the marriage, he alcholism, and anything else offered up about him. The gossip at the time was he still messed around, and even had a girlfriend. This man has to be 75 and above. I stared at him the whole time at the repass. I just kept wondering if he cared that my grandmother had died, did he feel sorry for his mistreatment of her, I mean did he even care that he was an absent father/grandfather?


I am at a lost for what I should do. Not sure if I should attend the funeral, my mom keeps asking if I want to go. Idk. Then I will have to see my dad(and thats a whole different post)

I goggled my grandfather's name as Jesse Winters Mississippi>>Found This<<. Yeah, his phone number and address. Made me kinda sad to see his number as if he was a living person. oh yeah and he had prostate cancer of all things. Not sure what his cause of death was.

All I know is that....He Died.

Rather Interesting........

Comparison of Bright vs Gifted

Bright Child vs. Gifted Child

Knows the answers.
Asks the questions.


Interested.
Extremely curious.


Pays attention.
Gets involved physically
and mentally.


Works hard.
Plays around, still gets
good test scores.


Answers questions.
Questions the answers.


Enjoys same-age peers.
Prefers adults or older
children.


Good at memorization.
Good at guessing.


Learns easily.
Bored. Already knew the
answers.


Listens well.
Shows strong feelings
and opinions.


Self-satisfied.
Highly critical of self
(perfectionistic).

Source: Janice Szabos as quoted in "The Gifted and Talented Child," Maryland Council for Gifted & Talented Children, Inc. P.O. Box 12221, Silver Spring, MD 20908

i wanna be a rapper

Except:

I have no vocal ability, no cool name, and I have the most serious case of stage fright.
But I did write a little rap verse to put on for my girls. I mean we all need a soundtrack to our fabness.

soo here goes

okay cut my music up(thats what im saying in the background).


I put on for my girls
A fashion faux pas never
They say oui oui love you
D*** right I put on for my girls
They want me to teach them
My fly-ness but it takes highness
It cost riches, you need to figure a-head
Even if you were to count ahead
You would need more than just great head
I stay around just to count the ex-es
Next-ess always seem like the bestest
Rate quoting my sexy-ness

I put on for my girls

Origin-nally made, not to be duplicated
Nor counterfeit, I rebel against outer-fits
You buy hermmes, I rather her-made
For those who need me to rephrase home-made
Time to watch me shoot those ducks
They stay quacking at my heels
Waiting for me to crack
I never will…they wanna see me lose
And I must say I never will
But you need to know there is a difference; between you and I
And it must be stated that
You are competing
And me…I have already won
Yeah..I put on for my girls



If you dont know, my sense of humor is pretty keen, maybe a little weird. and I am laughing so hard at this. Edub I know you are too. Thats the real rapper.
Okay i am done for now, because I dont want anybody trying to sign me.

Just Come.

I love this guy.



So its finally that time for Mr. Grip's album to be released 'Grip-Hop' on 08.08.08. Come through make a cameo on the video set at Lenny's Bar, even get a free copy of the CD because we love you so. And party afterwards at El Bar.
If that isnt enough there will be performances as printed on this nicely crafted flier above..hehe.
I am sure i'll see you there.
I mean what else do you have to do on 808?

So I Went to the Beach

And the Georgia Aquarium...and MLK's House...and White Water...and the High Museum...and i cant think of anything else because my brain is fried. Exhausted is not even the word. The fmai was in town for the Summer Atlanta Trip 08 (as we deemed it). The fam had a good time, and thats all that matters.
So here are the pictures that most intrigued me...






at the aqua.






i am obsessed with fields.


i had to do it.

















overall i had a fabulous time.

The Classics

As some of you may know by now, I do plan to be an author of some sort of book. But not just any ole book, but a classic! Soooo I have decided against my own will to read those books considered 'classics'. I have always done my own thing with writing, and did not want to study the works of others. I dont want my original ideas to be shaped by the style of others. I want to give light to my own style. I am in my own way as of now, and it is time to study those who have come before me.

And the point of all this is my reading of James Baldwin's "Go Tell It On The Mountain". I read the book in two days.[and its not long anyhow]. But the book for me was phenomal. I am not sure what I thought the book was about, but it totally caught me off guard to say the least. The book is comprised of maybe three scenes at the most, but out of those three scenes Baldwin was able to tell the story of the people involved. Hopefully that makes sense to those who have not read the book. The book is important to the black community, and especially the black church.
Sometimes I dont like the stamp "classic"...because it causes you not to critique the book on your own merits. Everyone accepts the stamp of approval, and many dont even read them to understand their importance.

So pick up a classic........Here is a link to full text books on the web, for those who dont frequent the book store >>REad<<

Black In America.

I must take this time out to say I am thoroughly and utterly upset about the special “Black In America” that aired on CNN last night.

Maybe my expectations were too high or maybe it was just trash. You tell me?
The number one problem I have is the breakdown of Part I and Part II. Why is that Part I is entitled “The Black Woman and The Family”, while Part II is entitled “The Black Man”….There are problems that as a black woman I face that are totally separate from the family, and really have nothing to do with the family. I understand that black single women and children are the family, and that is the problem in itself. The Black man is being shown as a separate entity from the family. Whether he is the father or the son or the brother, he is included in the Black Family.

So after watching I asked myself, what was the thesis? and…. Why did they start the special with a family that found their white grandfather (who cares)? I mean how many black people don’t have other cultures/races in their background. I don’t know about you, but Im not trying to be accepted by white people on the grounds that I have white in my family. That aspect of Black culture was nothing new. Let’s just start there.

The extent of my problems with the show was so wide I am not sure what to touch on. It should be said that I am Black in America, and feel that special did not depict me at all; especially as a young Black woman in America. The special just gave a bunch of stats that showed where Black people were, but did not show how they got there. The case was not cracked. I mean for goodness sake they did not even talk about institutionalized racism which causes all these discrepancies between Blacks’ and their economic status. Nor did they even show solutions. At some point we have to be able to talk about what is being changed, instead of what is continuing to go wrong. Okay so AIDS/HIV is the number one killer of Black women, so what are you gonna do about it? You aren’t going to provide them with medicine to keep there life going. There is a direct correlation between poverty and health. So if you don’t have the money, you don’t have the medicine plain and simple. Okay so Black children have a high drop out rate, so are you going to improve their schools? Or were you even willing to show these schools they are dropping out of? Until America is willing to make schools equal, don’t show me that crap. I am totally disgusted.

And excuse me for a moment if you are of mixed race: But what did the interracial piece have to do with being “Black in America”. I mean the fact that we only had two hours (and a total of four), and you decided to spend a great deal of time on being of mixed race. What was the point? The special only catered to Barack Obama, and the speech he gave on race. Now all of sudden America is suppose to care about what it is like to be Black, and if they watched that they still don’t get it. I think it is a valid issue(being of mixed race), and should be discussed. Especially if the special was given more time to show a spectrum of Black people. But that is just not the case.

I really could go on, but im not going to stay on my soap box…I will say that today I almost started crying about this special, and my Aunt even told me she couldn’t sleep because of it…..But I must say the special did show what it is like to be “Black In America”….It got your hopes all up(black people anyway) that things were gonna to be good, and they were gonna finally air our story, and America would understand our plight…but then you watched and realized they still don’t get it, and they never will get….
So at this point i just dont give.

So Excuse My Human State....

Rihanna is not an Aquarius as I stated on my last post. Her birthday is February 20th, and she is a Pisces. Which means she is on the cusp( Aquarius/Pisces) and does have personality traits of an Aquarius.Forgive me because I was misinformed. People are really funny to me, they never see the point of what you are saying if in fact you misspell, or misquote something. Sorry I am human, and forgot to be perfect.

And I will continue to blog...(to you anonymous). Thanks I love you too! I am glad you are reading.

"It's The Aquarius In Me"

Many people dont follow astrology, nor believe that it has any validity. Well screw you..lol...im not one of those people. I am an Aquarius to the fullest. So much that I find myself having the most to say about fellow Aquarians (who just happen to be celebs). My major critiques are the fact that they have no personality, or just dont give enough of themselves. So I decided to compile a list of just a few celebs I have done this to. Please forgive me, for I have used you to talk about my own character flaws..i assume.

Number #1: Lauren Conrad.
Well lets just say she is fashionable, but so blah sometimes. I always ask myself "how did she get a show?"....



Number #2: Kerry Washington

I never have too much to say about her, mainly because I dont feel there is much to say. Besides the fact that she is gorgeous, and a talented actress. Maybe that is all I should be saying.haha.

Number #3: Jennifer Anniston

I have always accused her of not giving enough personality. And the fact that I can never get a feel for her personality. Funny thing is a very perceptive person once told me that we had similar face structure, and that it seemed we would act alike. Strange thing to say, but I guess it may have some validity.

Number #4: Rhianna

Well well...I love this chica....Her style is great, her music is good..She just never gives me enough on the performance end.

I guess it is the lot of an Aquarius to be misunderstood, but still have the world wanting more. Aquarians have this quiet alluring side to their personality. They are very private people. They also have some duality about their personality, not always sure how much to share of themselves with the outside world. They give you just enough to keep you coming back for more, and you are never sure how they got in your head. But indeed they are there, and usually there to stay.

INTP (Introversion, iNtuition, Thinking, Perceiving)

Yesterday I went to Barnes and Nobles for one of my usual weekend trips, and was given this book about what careers fits best based upon your personality type.
Come to find out I am INTP as the title states. According to one of those statics that you arent sure who is polled, INTPers are 1% of the population. Basically nobodys. This acrynom comes from the Myers-Briggs test>>If you want to know more<<. INTP are often misunderstood because their thinking is very complex. At times it can be hard for them to express their thoughts where others can understand. I didnt really even get to the jobs because I was so fascinated with my kind. Apparently INTP's mask their feelings a lot because they like things to be logical. So they will even diss miss their own thoughts/feelings if they have no logical base. They can be seen as cold hearted because of this, but with true understanding of INTP's you will see it is not intentional. We also hold our self and others to very high standards, and tend to look down upon character flaws. But if we focus on the light hearted side of our personality, and leave room from for feelings things should be just fine. With that being said I have decided that I must air my feelings. ooooh even writing that made me automically clam up. But Im gonna try anyway:

• I Feel...really bad sometimes that I dont talk to my dad. His birthday was on the 16th, and I didnt care to call him. It is unfortunate that we dont have a relationship. I do blame him for my current state with men.
• I Feel...that I am totally in love with someone at this very moment, but wouldnt dare tell the person. I tend to think its better to give no light to love. I rather not feel tied to someone, it just makes you so vulnerable. And thats scary to me.
• I Feel....scared to be successful. Because I really do know that I am powerful beyond measure.
• I Feel....Like I have to act as if i am a hard a**, so people wont really see how I feel. But at times I really dont care about things most people do.
• I Feel...that crying is the best thing to do, but I wont ever let anyone see me cry.
• And lastly I feel like im telling all my business, and I must stop now..lol

You just dont know how hard that was.

So try to share a feeling with someone that you wouldnt normally share. Its kinda refreshing.

WTF

Within 24hours I have seen a bit too much, and had to tell someone.

It started last night. Everyone knows how Peachtree gets on Friday nights(plus the added traffic from the construction on 75). So out of nowhere some dude thinks it is a good idea to speed through this traffic and runs right into someone; causing that car to also hit the car in front. Funny thing, I actually met the guy who caused the accident, he is an atlanta party photographer. [Yeah i know there are tons of those]. Then today I stumbled upon a very recent accident that caused a motorcyclist to be laying flat on the ground while bystanders surrounded him. They were touching him to make sure he was alive, this totally freaked me out. I dont have much evidence on this but im sure the guy was totally out of it, or totally out of here. Then, I also saw two men in handcuffs, on two separate occasion. I know that is probably not a big deal, but I honestly dont see these things often. And one was by a woman cop on a bicycle. In my head I was really trying to figure out how she caught him on a bicycle. Then to top it off I was riding on MLK tonight and smelled weed for atleast two blocks. I mean heavily too. What's really going on??

Either this is crazy, or I just havent been out in Atl in awhile. Sorry I didnt take pictures, but each time I was totally not expecting to see these things.

I Hope He Reads This....

I had to marinate on a particular past situation for a few days...and finally my exact feelings came through a song. As the title states I hope he reads this.




These are the lyrics from the song that basically sum it up....

If I don't pick up the phone
Like I used to (for you)
Don't you take it personal

If I don't do all the things that
I used to do (to you)
I ain't mad at you

If you get to feelin' stressed
Up in your chest
Thinkin' that you about to lose
(Baby, it's true)
And if you losing out on sleep
Home worrying about me
(That's how it be)


If you don't know
Now you know
You're gonna miss my love (my love)
And I ain't stressing 'bout a doggone thing
Cause I was true when I gave you (my love)
My love

Cutey Cutey aka Top of the Top

From time to time ill go on Yahoo! and Google search engine and search under my name Cris Monay. Only to see if I fill up the whole page…and today went to look at Yahoo!, and I have filled the whole page(still working on Google)..I know so lame, but somehow that made my day. I even made it on some French website, not sure how that happened. You know you wanna see too >>Click Here<<.

Hmmm…wonder if im on the second page too?!

A State Beyond (Emerge)ncy……

I get really scared sometimes, and I am in constant thought about the things happening around me. Seems most are not even phased.

I have been accused of being too intense, too deep, and not willing to see the bright side of things. This is all wrong; I am a very happy person, but not a dumb person.

The problem is everyone else lacks a sense of urgency. Now we are in a state beyond emergency. The background music playing in my head sings the tune, “every dynasty has its day, and our number is just up.” The song is on repeat.

I wonder…

How long it will take for most people to realize that they are not free. This country sees you strictly as a consumer; a dollar sign, a demographic to sale to. We will sale you a lifestyle, we will sale you lies as long as you keep on buying. The oil industry is about to suck you dry, because they know soon they will be obsolete. We can not continue to live off oil. Right now we are solely dependent on them. How does that make you feel to know that someone needs you for your money? Not because you are intelligent, or beautiful, or just a good person. You are just one of their dollars.

America is like that child or bully that showed off all the time. Telling all the other kids how they have this and that, and how to do things the “right” way. So now all the kids have caught on, and have all the same things you do. You are no longer number one anymore. That is not the biggest deal, but it is when you still want to act as if you are number one. You can’t shine under someone else’s light.

At this point I no longer care if hip hop is dead or alive. That should almost be last on the list, if it even appears on the list. I am worried about my quality of life, and the quality of life of those that come after me. At this point we have to see beyond our self. Tomorrow may not be here, but we all know that it’s coming. Please nurture today for those who have to follow behind you, and truly at this point for your tomorrow.

Greed mixed with capitalism mixed with technology has put America in an awful position. When I say technology I don’t only mean computers, but advancement. I am torn with my analysis on technology, but it would take some in-depth explaining to understand my point on that. Technology with the yearning for more in order to gain the maximum profit, has been an awful deadly combination.

Im not gonna go down the list of how many jobs have been lost, or how many companies have flopped, or how many houses have been lost. Because you know all that, but still you do nothing. Frankly, I can understand that position. I too feel like the writing is on the wall.

Is anyone willing to evaluate their thinking, and maybe blame that on our current state? Do you feel as if you are invincible, if so that is a problem? Soon things that were of a second nature to you will be luxuries. Luxuries you can not afford. Especially those on the border line of being middle class or lower class citizens. You most definitely will be lower class.

I wonder…

If this is how you feel when you know your people’s days are numbered, and can’t do a thing about it. Don’t get me wrong I don’t live in constant fear, for I know that my purpose here was to live and die. I am not in control of how I die, nor when. I only have control of what I do in between. One thing I wont do is be silent, and watch the smoke cloud everything I love everything I know.

In the words of my great professor Dr. Livingston,” you shouldn’t be upset, you should be ANGRY.” And in the words of Dr. Maya Angelou, “It is okay to be angry, but you know what you must do with anger? You march it, you protest it, you dance, you talk it, you never stop talking it.”

I shall never stop writing it……..

*Excuse the length, it just had to be stated.

Published! Now Where is my Star?

I am looking for my star on the Hollywood Walk of Fame...but I'll take the little notches too. I got another article published by Associated Content. If you care to read it >>Click Here<<. The article resembles a post I did a few months back on my blog, with some minor changes.


Remember the Power of NOW...thats like my favorite saying these days.


p.s. I didnt watch the news, so if someone cares to tell me the Mega Million numbers that would be greatly appreicated.

1000th Episode

I knew today I would hit a 1000 visits on my website. Even better, I caught the number perfectly, so I had to make a post in honor of my 1000th visit since April...Hopefully I can double that in a months time..thats my goal.




if you are wondering this is the home page.

My First Time....

Today was a day of first...


My first time wearing this dress that I bought in Decemeber( i hardly wait a week to wear something new).

and a many of compliments I received too. Shouts out to goodwill.




I played the lottey for the first time today, and bought my first scratch off ticket. Susan Miller(google her) told me today was a lucky day for me....but after I went and read it again she said dont play the lotto..ooops. Oh well hopefully I strike out like i did on the dress. Now if I can just remember to watch the news.

Wish me luck.

Let's See If This Works

I posted an ad on Craig's List with the hope that I can bring more people to the site. My hopes are for the site to be interactive and informative, and to eventually gain some positive feedback from people. I really am interested in how other people interpret living, and what inspires them to continue on.

I am so attached to the theory of free will that sometimes I forget that I have to let people know about my site, everything in life doesnt have natural progression. Some things do have to be pushed along. I now see that.

So hopefully my push gets me a little further to my goal...

Thanks for reading.

If you were wondering....

I didn't make it to Miami (sad face), or New York (extra sad face) my second option. Airtran's xfares had a blackout date for July 13th, so I wouldnt have been able to get home on Sunday. Sucks for me.

BUt......

I just couldn't stand the fact that I would have to be in Atlanta all weekend, especially after already being packed and ready to go. So I came to Tallahassee (in my own car close to a pinto. missing all the hub caps except one whip) to see one of the greats. My twin soul, Gwyns. Fun shall be had, and ill try to post some pics if I catch any worth mentioning.

This Just Came to Me.....

"Held you in my arms,
as my brother. I kept you.
But somehow when we got over the bridge,
we were crossed. You on one side. I on the other.
Every (wo)man must seek humility,
or it most certainly will seek you.
Don't be last to see the signal."

I thought this video would only be befitting...this is one of my favorite songs/duo.

The Story Behind The Words

The Words:

Darkness in the Park

I really wanna go to the park..
I wish it wasn’t dark….

Or I would show you why the sun sets a shadow
So the trees can dance with the grass

Or I would let you hear the laughter of a child
That would heal a thousand souls…

Or I would let you feel the breeze of the air
That slips through your fingers
Before you forever grab its magic

I really wanna go to the park…
I wish it wasn’t dark….

Or we would take a walk
Which has no end
Where your eyes become your mind
And your space becomes the place
Where nature can be its self
And show you its infinite possibilities
Where the course of your life is played
Through the vibrations of every branch
And sing a tune even the birds can’t chirp

I really wanna go to the park…
I wish it wasn’t dark…

Or you could witness the color of the clouds
That matches the sound of joy….

Or you would trust the rain to
Be just what you want
And you would believe the sky
Is all you need to get by…

I really wanna go to the park
So I wish it was dark….



The Story:

It was a summer night, and I was in the middle of a texting conversation. I decided to share with the person on the other end that I wanted to go to the park, and i wished that it was not dark. After I sent the message I added that sounded like a line from a poem. The person lightly diss missed me, and my abilities. So I had to prove them wrong, and show them I could really create something out of those words...Once I finished in a matter of moments they were totally in awe of my creation. They even went on to encourage me to invest more time in my writing, to take it serious. Probably before that moment I really did not. Some time later long after writing it, I found new meaning besides proving that I could write. The poem showed me how we put limitations on ourselves, and on things. The last line "so i wish it was dark"...shows that you must accept what is and find enjoyment out of that. There was no reason why I could not go to the park just because of it being dark [metaphorically speaking, this is 2008 and girl can not go to the park at night]. Sometimes it helps to know the story behind different writings. Hope you enjoyed mine.

In Celebration of Cris Coming Out

(or rather going out)
For the first time in months...well maybe a few weeks. I have really been in the house on straight chill mode. Tonight marks the start of a great weekend. Tomorrow I will be heading to Miami[crossing my fingers for a x-fare ticket]. That is, after work which I have to be at by 5am tomorrow morning....so 5hour energy drink my friend you shall be.

How do I look?
I tried new hair. For the first time in a whole year I let my stylist curl my hair a different way. I am a total advocate for the saying "if something works, stick to it"....

but I like.

be peace.

Love and B-ball

If only i could really fall in it and play.....to win.

OoOpps....

To anybody that walked in on me undressing the site(sorry)...I was just playing dress up for a moment to see which outfit work the best. Im done...at least for today.

p/s...Is anybody out there?? someone, anyone just leave me a comment...Just click down below(haha), yeah right where it says comment..and say hey to girl or something. be peace.

Back By Popular Demand- "If I Lived In The Radio"

Lets have fun, what if I lived in the radio, what would a girl’s life be like???! I think my life would look a little like this…

If im at the club/going to the club…I don’t know if

1.Im suppose to buy my own drink, and be Ms. I-N-D-E-P-E-N-D-E-N-T

2.Buy you a drink since you want a [broad] that can take care of you

3.Or wait for you to “Buy me a drink”….so then I can get extra toasty and you take me home with you. But even that poses a problem…

According to Jay-Z…by 7am you gonna be kicking me out…So then I need a ride home, and then I wont have a ride, because you said my friends and I could roll with you!!!!

So next question is do I drive to the club or roll with you…A girl is confused at this point!

Wait problem solved…since every song is about a club…I might as well live there…I mean I already work there [usually near a pole] so, why not live there. I never have to separate work and partying…
Usher and I could apparently “Make Love In This Club”….one better would be to just stay there permanently, right?? Right! Everything goes down in the club!

So since that is squared out of the way, lets continue….

The ‘man’ I have would never be good enough for me, I would need Lil Wayne so that I could “Lick his Lollipop”….and he can make it Juicy for me! Then T.I. would remind me constantly that my man ain’t him…and ask me “Why you wanna go and do that”???! Hmmm I don’t know T.I. why im trippin I should just be with you and your fiancée.
Although I don’t know who this ‘man’ would be since the last time I checked you weren’t trying to be my man.

A girl is just extra confused at this point….

Apparently the only clothes item I own is Jimmy choo [shoes]….according to a host of rappers….(Google it)
This is all very confusing…Because the rappers never mention what other clothes items I suppose to wear…
Oh but that’s right…we are usually at video shoots and who really needs clothes on in a video…besides the rapper…im totally tripping again…
OmG…
How could I forget …I can wear boots with fur…and Apple Bottoms jeans…like the hottest jeans around….right??!! Right!

So lets put this all together….Basically

1.I should just live in the club, and work in the club so that there is no confusion on my location at all times. That way we don’t have to worry about how im gonna get home, and just “make Love in the club” after you “Buy me a Drink”….and I can still be miss I-N-D-E-P-E-N-D-E-N-T!
2.You are way better than my man, so I keep asking myself “why you wanna go and do that”…We all know rappers are the best ‘men’ to have…But lets not forget that I don’t know who the man would be since you ain’t trying to be my man..all I need to know is that you are better than any known or unknown man I could have. Point Blank!

3.Last but not least, a girl only needs to be concerned with having on Jimmy Choo shoes, all other clothing items are secondary, and in most cases not needed.

Thanks to all the rappers for allowing me to know what its like to live in the radio, sounds fun huh??!!

BUT………

Sorry to say I don’t live in the radio…and fit none of the qualifications. The women…excuse me the [girls] that live in the radio must be superhuman…I mean they manage to be everything and nothing at all in the same breath…ummm…truly amazing!Excuse me for the length I just had so much fun living in the radio, and not in the real world..forgive me..lol

I shall be back with part II very soon. So be on the lookout

A Bit For Barack

In Honor of Barack being in Atlanta today , I thought I would post pictures from a recent event I attend on the behalf of his campaign. He has decided to campaigan and visit all the states Bush won in 2000 and 2004 in his presidential bid. The event I attend a few weeks ago was to excite people into joining his campaign. No one said anything out of the ordinary about why they wanted Barack to be the President outside of the normal "i want change". So what got me as I was sitting there is the fact that I was participating in a political event. I mean when is the last time I could say that, actually I can't say it all. It is not that I dont care about the political process, I have always been indifferent. Even at this moment I am some what indifferent about the situation. From the beginning I was totally for Obama (not that my feelings have changed), but my feelings have all become somewhat jaded. I think in my mind the country is taking a downshift, and I dont think the President (whomever it may be) will be able to stop the decline. One thing I can say is Obama is a man of integrity, and that's my kinda man. I wish I could find those qualities in more people. My hopes are that Obama wins. As my son would say "Obama is for the people".

Tell me what you think of all this.....

"i cried today,
for the world. Wish i knew what to with my tears.

i cried today,
for the world, i hope my tears were felt.

-Cris Monay

Thoughts On Religion

In true Aquarius fashion I dont like boxes. At all, I despise them. For me religion is a box that believes one is better than the other, one is right over the other, and that just doesnt work for me. I feel in life their is a universal truth.

Growing up I spent my summers in Mississippi, and my grandmother center our life around church. From sunday school, to vacation bible study, even to the point that on sunday we went to the morning service and the evening service. The church was Baptist, so for the longest that is what I considered myself without really understanding what that meant. I was also taught that you don't discuss religion. That was mainly because any time I witnessed a discuss about religion and what it meant there were so many discrepancies even within my own family. Now that I have grown up a little and allowed to think on my own I have totally strayed away from the church. I never stop believing in God, and I never will. I just dont condom many things that go on in churches. I do understand this is my personal opinion, and respect everyone's opinion on this matter.




My actual reason for this post is that I have decided to read the Bible from cover to cover. This will allow for my own interpretation. It is also a good conversation piece, and I love a good debate. When the time comes I will be posting things that stood out in my reading. Already so far this has:


pg. 2 of my bible(i know not far at all)


Genesis 3:16

Unto the woman he said, I will greatly
multiply thy sorrow and thy conception; in
sorrow thou shalt bring forth children; and thy
desire shall be to thy husband, and he shall
rule over thee


I mean thats pretty self-explanatory...such a harsh sentence as well. Oh yeah and im reading from my first Bible I ever received, its a wonder I still have it.

So wish me luck, and happy reading.

itsthereal.com

You must check this site out. A friend tells me to go to this site itsthereal.com, and when i asked why. He said, and i quote: funny a** white folks who do hiphop sketch comedy.

St. Lunacy from jeff on Vimeo.

This is my kind of humor.

Look At This....

Man...is all i can say. Im not exactly sure where the photo was taken from. It is entitled Black and White Living...so if you know, let me know.

It Couldn't Be

TRue......

that i just spent the last 4hrs. trying to tweak my myspace page..ridiculous. All i wanted was a profile that excluded the top friends..the blog...the interest..pretty much anything that would be found on most myspace pages..
instead i was bombarded with Webfetti at every turn..the lengths people will go with SPAM...another ridiculous thing.

but anyhow i finally finished....very basic. but i kinda heart it..so hopefully you do too. Click Here to View

Watermelon Disguised as Viagra...Who Knew?

i thought i would share....

“Watermelons contain an ingredient called citrulline that can trigger production of a compound that helps relax the body's blood vessels, similar to what happens when a man takes Viagra,” says Texas Scientist.

“Citrulline is found in all colors of watermelon and is highest in the yellow-fleshed types,” said Penelope Perkins-Veazie, a USDA researcher in Lane, Okla.

"Arginine boosts nitric oxide, which relaxes blood vessels, the same basic effect that Viagra has, to treat erectile dysfunction and maybe even prevent it," said Bhimu Patil, a researcher and director of Texas A&M's Fruit and Vegetable Improvement Center. "Watermelon may not be as organ-specific as Viagra, but it's a great way to relax blood vessels without any drug side effects."

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its not the cure all..but start young..lol.

Fame+Riches+Respect.....

I have always tried to figure out how I could obtain all three at once, or if that was even possible… I have finally figured out how all three will happen at once, BUT not with just one thing.

In the months to come you will be privy to the rise of Fame…I can’t give the sorted details now, but just stay tuned. I can say that good things come in 2’s.

As well I can’t disclose the Riches part either..but let’s just say im a genius at heart, and while most of you are sleep im up thinking about how to take over the world..lol. No, really but only for good.

Lastly, the Respect will come through my writing hopefully. I also have an upcoming project that I will be working on tirelessly to improve the quality of life for women. When the time comes I will need help from the general public, but that is some time down the road. There is no doubt that I will be using this blog as an outlet, so be on the look out for that as well.

That is enough ranting about myself…go enjoy your holiday.

Laguna Beach Pre-Laguna Beach

I love photography. When no is around i like to call myself a photographer. Anyhow I came across this picture by Paul Outerbridge that immediately grabbed my attention. Come to find out it is a picture of Laguana Beach in the 50s, before Lauren and the gang were ever thunk of (as my grandmother would say). Tres chic, right?! Photo Courtesy of Paul Outerbridge's Website.

What's the Cost of Happiness

I read this very interesting (but short) article on people's happiness around the world. Research has concluded that Denmark was the happiest in the world, and Zimbabwe is the glummest in the world when it came to the people who lived in the country. The U.S. came in a number 16(not surprised).

The data collected was topping on a 2 hour conversation I had yesterday with a co-worker about the state of America. The article states that a survey done in America showed that 81% of people here feel like the country is on the wrong track. I can definitely attest to that. So it got me wondering are people around me really unhappy..because most people I know seem to be pretty content with all that’s going on around them (i.e. the gas, the economic woes, the war, and a host of other things). If you ask me I just feel like everyone is walking around dead…So at this point I really able wondering, so let me know are you happy? Read Article