the time has come...

okay okay..its time to be real with myself and do whats important to me now, instead of later

im not sure how much time i have...ya know.

so that means no blogging.

but i will be back to ask for your help in a few days...and honestly i will need your help.

I gotta revamp

Ill be back, not sure when?????!!!!

Endings

Today is my last day at my job of almost two years.
Its bittersweet, but seems mostly sweet.
Sometimes endings can be hard because you dont want to move in the unknown
I wouldnt say my new position doesnt offer stability, its just the unknown
ha!
At my current job i know the ins and outs, the security
But its time to move on, have new experiences, all that good stuff
So im excited to see where this new position takes me
Wish me good luck
I wish you the same :)

Thats all.

im bizzzzbaccck

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I had a blast, but too tried to write about it.

i think its funny

the same reason everyone loved Kayne, is the same reason everyone is turned off by him.
it really makes me laugh
People love to hate you
How many times has this happen
The truth isnt always pretty.

10 plus

I had lunch with the girlies today to commence our Spring Break...

Somehow we landed on the discussion of what would we be like in 10 years???

I was surprised that my friends said I would be somewhere speaking

being a motivational speaker in Europe (or somewhere), and hard to get in touch with.

I would be speaking to girls on being fabulous, and giving away 2:14 jewelry.

ha!

I guess this isnt far fetched at all...its just funny that someone else sees it.

so...back to write my book in hopes of inspiring young girls across the world.

irony??

my story

i finally got to the point...
if you have read the blog before i have talked about finishing a certain book
of course i never stay on topic...
BUT finally i have decided on my first book
its gonna be about me...
I KNOW...i just have to tell the story, bc you have no idea the story...

you wanna peak??


I wanna try my best to be politically correct, and honest when I tell this story. I hope to not offend those who have trespassed against me, I must tell this story as is. I forgive you. I wanna to be able to make sure all the words are where they are suppose to be and everything comes off as it should. Do forgive me if it doesn’t..Im just a girl who thought she could get away without love…and she just wants to tell you how.

I don’t remember being born, for most people cant. I can barely remember the moment I was first aware of life, and that I was living. Because most of what I would consider living is in question. I never felt alive, in a sense that I mattered. I think this is the feeling most humans have, but everyone is so busy thinking they aren’t notice to even be noticed. I must say that I come from the typical black girl lost story. I don’t say this to be cliché, I say it because it is valid.

do you want more???

one day two...

i wrote a lot of,..... well...personal stuff

since turning 23 something has changed,

maybe it wasnt the number 23, but just 23 for me

lately i have been pretty reflective

and to say the least introverted(more so than i am normally)

that just doesnt make for very good blog material

because...well its personal

i am trying to find the balance between my soul searching, and this here blog.

so if anyone still reads, just bear with me.

who knew 23 brought all this?

testing, testing

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Im trying to setup my mobile blog...lets see how this goes.

I know i have been so mia...i wonder if anyone reads this thing anymore????????


oh cute, this is my 214th post...on the week of my 214 birthday.
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Its February

Yep!

Its February time to celebrate for so many reasons

The most important one, that we should all recognize is my birthday.
I just know we all have been waiting for that.
Hints the 2:14
Among other things are President’s Day
Which is in February because many notable Presidents birthday is in February
Probably the most famous of these Abraham Lincoln and George Washington
It is also Black History Month

But on the serious tip, I am into the astrology and when people were born (all that stuff)
So I have some of my favorite Aquarians that I will shout out, if I remember to.

I learn today that it was Rosa Parks Bday, so Happy Bday to her….



and some of my favorites



O, the epitome of an Aquarius, in my opinion



Bob Marley



Toni Morrison, one my favorite authors





Huey P. Newton, before the destruction

soapbox

Im so over it…
Ill just start there.

This morning I heard on the radio about an interview Lil Wayne did with GQ..

In which he states that he doesn’t believe in books..the Bible being one of them..
You cant trust anything in a book…and the only book he does believe in is the Dictionary

Wtf…that isn’t a direct quote..but those are the main points.
Number one I am so tired of this being the role model for black men.
I cant tell you how many times I have heard a black man say he doesn’t read, like he is suppose to get him cool points or something.
Such a turn off.
So does he believe that since what he says isn’t written in a book it is true?
Music can be held to the same standards of a book..there are too many song which have no validity.
I just don’t get this!

And yesterday I posted the clip of Jay-z acting a fool…someone who clearly knows better, or you would have thought knew better.
At some point you have to grow up, and evolve.
Whether they want ppl to look up to them or not, ppl do…so I feel you have a responsibility
You have a gift, and you are responsible for using in correctly…in my opinion.

Ill end with this….a quote from Lil Wayne’s “A mili” song that always bothered me anyway
“And the Bible told us every girl was sour
Don't play in the garden and don't smell her flower”

Why quote something you don’t believe?

the best of both worlds

so im kinda sort of into astrology...but now i have moved to numerology.

there are so many ppl that are non-believers in this kinda of stuff....i can see why.
but i take the nature vs. nurture approach to life.
i feel that ppl are born with certain ways, and certainways they develop...and both combine to make someone who they are.

but anywho...the other day on the radio i heard a guy talking about numerology...and it intrigued me bc the day before i had brunch with some friends and we read over our numerology for the year to come....then no shortly after that i hear this guy is on the radio.

he actually considers himself an AstroNumerologist...where he combines both studies to read people...

so hints the best of both worlds.
if i could be still long enough i would actually consider taking time out to become one of these...but my spirit is way to restless for that.

but if you wanna know more about the guy you can find him at numbersandyou.com
its quite interesting to see what number is recurring in your life.

i lied

IM RIGHT BACK HERE................

the whole problem with being impulsive, is that your are being impulsive.

so im not moving, well right now.

this is probably the most true to character thing i have done since i had this blog...

who goes and just moves blogs, and then comes right back

well me, and it wouldnt be right if I didnt do it....

whose in?

you know one thing that's hard to do?  stay Present...

and by that i mean not to be worried about things in the past that still haunt your today

and not be worried about your future...

Everyone always thinks their future is brighter than their today...

but it will only be that way if you cherish the moment in which you have presently....

because if you dont treasure that present moment, how do you expect to the treasure the moments ahead, or the future as it looks in our head.

as the saying goes the future has its roots into today...BUT that doesnt only pertain to what you do, but how you do it.

There are soooooo many people that cant wait to live it up once they get some money, but fail to do that in the present...

because look at this way

a. what if the money never comes(and even when it does it wont make you happy)

and

b. what if you never live pass today, then what?

i always have to remind myself to stay present...at moments it comes natural...but as in human nature i always wonder off to what about this, and i wonder if this will ever happen. its a constant struggle...

with all that being said REMEMBER THE POWER OF NOW!

happy weekend..ill be out for most of it. toodles.

soon come

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why didnt i put myself on this cd sooner...
outside of the singles on the cd i didnt explore
shame on me

"i know it from the moment we met
no doubt in my mind you belong"
-from the song "make you feel my love"

its on repeat


it came right on time.

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“if someone shows you who they are believe them”
-Maya Angelou


When I first ran across this quote I ponder up down around and across.
One because I just like to absorb every possibility of what people are trying to say
And
Two because it was so striking, and right in your face. Like you cant escape it.
And
Three because the message the quote is trying to rely was bothering me,
because I was doing the same thing with that quote
that you would do with someone who showed who they were, but just didn’t want to see them for that
I just didn’t want this to be so true

But this quote is true time and time again.
So really if someone shows you who they are
Without a doubt believe them.

And I believe.

what i know to be true

what i know to be true...

is that the most important relationship you can have 

is with yourself..

and i would like to think that i have a very good one with myself

i know that in the end, no matter what  i have, or who i have in my life or not in my life i have to be with myself

so its important to take of myself

if for instance you cant be by yourself in totally silence, still silence, just sit in silence and just be...then i would have to say that your relationship is totally off balance.

the fact that i love myself allows me to take care of those around me, and give to them what i choose to give to them.

its never more than i can handle, or any less.

the real point of this, is me buying flowers for myself the other day

and i thought i would share them with you.

kinda like im bought them for you too.

so enjoy...and treat yourself every once in awhile.

my biggest fear

ill get everything i want.....

and realize that i dont even want it.

not to sound profound or anything, thats my honest fear.

what do you think?

shontelle "t-shirt"

because....

all i could think is she has the same appearance as Dawn from Dainty Kane

and she had this whole Rhianna vibe, there can only be one star who has no real stage presence but we love to continue buy her albums 

lastly...

why would you name your song t-shirt, Destiny Child's has a song with the exact title...

i know i know a million songs with the same name, but not a good look on the first single though. especially when you are trying to establish.

im just saying.

yeah and if you dont watch none of this will make sense.

The Twenty2.com

man im so excited i cant even type the words....

so our secret project is finally making its debate.

we are still keeping things lowkey in order to create a little buzz, a little anticipation of whats to come.

and of course continue to work. we want beyond perfection.

you dont want to not receive that email (coming soon) with the password to our password protected site

but for now you can loathe over our splash page

http://www.thetwenty2.com

http://www.thetwenty2.com

http://www.thetwenty2.com

and make sure to send me your email address if you arent sure i have it, because you definitely want to see this one.

if you are young and about your business and you have plans for your already planned time, we might be looking for you.

ha...who doesnt love 22?