lets be honest

my life has becoming B to the b-o-r-i-n-g. and it has been reflective in this here blog

but what is a girl to do when she is exhausting her youth and trading it in for adulthood

in which you somehow chase those "dreams" you had all your life

because now its time to live up to all that you said you could be

and well it rather draining!

not to mention things have being going on personally...that im not allowed to even blog about

a. because who knows who reads this

and 

b. who knows who doesnt read this

just for the fun of it i wrote a poem (which even that has been absent in my life) to sum up just some of the things that have me going to bed at 6 pm! smh

to be titled at a later date

ONce...

i fell in love

and...

you couldnt tell 

if the stars or the moon shined brighter

whenever i danced

i felt his feet move

they stepped and paced across my heart

like that sailor

who left for the sea

but in this story he came home

i....

felt at most all the possibilities of the situation

even had myself thinking they were all true

yeah,

i fell in love

once...before

i told time my the ring of his dial

a minute couldnt be found where he wasnt mine

we never thought about two as one

we were just one

we didnt let our night time thoughts 

exceed what the sun had in store for us

so...

sunny trips to the coast were planned

to be a destination of love

yeah, once i was i love

i thought when he left

i could say goodbye

because...

it was real

and they say "whats yours will always be"

instead

i wanna tell you the end of the story

but i cant..

the truth of the matter

and "let's be honest"

the story never ended

because i never felt the out in this love

and

its as strong today

as it was when my heart first akin to skip your beats

i have reached every possibility without you

and "lets be honest"

i now know there are none possible without you.

so at this point its bedtime.