this is a sad day...

my computer has crashed....i have no nerve to write anything. im just super upset.

so im gonna go offline and cry..lol...i really have no clue what to do.
but ill let you know once i figure it out.

where art thou bj?

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"if you happen to see her, tell her i really need her."

I'm -ning

So i created a ning account. I wish i could say more about it, but i really have no clue how to use it or what its real purpose is...but if you wanna join and be a member of my page i guess you can click below and roam aimlessly around as I have.


View my page on Fablog

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Turn That Frown Upside + Down

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just when i thought my day was going bad..and it was.
i got THIS, my acceptance letter in the mail for SCAD. and my frown is gone :)
Yay!

really.

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smh. w/a SOMF.


Who?
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just because "i can"

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I do it for the love. Sometimes just for the love of love, and even in spite of love. How many of you can say you do something just for the love it. I don’t want any fame or fortune. Im just trying to keep the lights on..so that the future stands bright for all those who follow.
That’s why I write….I hope thats clear…I hope you hear that, I hope you can feel that, and hope that of all things you do have hope. I hope that hope becomes faith, and that faith becomes action, and we can all see what follows.
If your watch is not tuned into the right station, or doesn’t reflect the right time…The time is set for NOW…and you can set your watch to that.
Or you could just follow, because that’s where im headed.
But instead I'll stand on hope and faith, to see what follows....

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Beautiful Black Butterfly
You have taken a chance to spread your wings
And fly,
Your flight has manifested its destiny.
Your place has been set in stone,
And as you soar,
Let no one stop your flight.

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i just like it thats all.
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SOMF

I have been meaning to write on this subject for the longest….

LOL has to be the most overused text phrase in the short history of text phrases. So my questioning a** wanted to know why we use LOL so much. We will even use it at times when we really aren’t laughing but just smirking a bit…Social Norms bother me sometimes, well most times.


So I told the bestest that we should make something new up…and I decided it should be SOMF…(Smile on my face). Most often that is the action that takes the place of actually laughing out loud. I told her I wasn’t going to introduce it to people, I was just gonna start using it to see people’s reaction. I only did it on one unsuspecting person, but it was such a classic moment that it was no need to continue. The bestest and I still laugh about it today.


The text conversation went a little like this:
At this point they were probably telling me how funny I am, and just a great person, and so honored to be my friend..and what not bc that’s how most conversations go with me…(Joke). But honestly I don’t remember what he said that made me decide to SOMF him. So lets just insert something in the blank that is slightly funny.

Unsuspecting Texter: ______________

Me: SOMF

Unsuspecting Texter: Some*

Me: LOL, no that means smile on my face. (I had to do it. I had to be a jacka** about it, like the phrase was commonly used)

And at that point the laughs just began…First off who corrects your text with the insertion that you are suppose to do. Anyhow he provided the greatest laugh ever.

One day im gonna bring back SOMF, i guess it would have to go somewhere for me to bring it back. but you know what i mean.
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gif.

okay so i made my first gif..........i know i know IM EXTRA LATE.haha.

work hard, don't do hard work

so in keeping with the tradition of this motto, i have decided to put myself to work. Since i won't be in school until January 09', i told my job i will be working part time now. And the hard work i decided to do was to write my second book. The story idea has been hanging in my head for months now. I even took a trip early summer to the scene of the book in Argyle, Ga.....4 to 5 hours away from Atlanta. I will be paying myself $1(i know not much) for everyday that i write for my book. So wish me luck. My hope is to have it done by January before school starts, ah man that would be really awesome if i could. I'll be chronicling my journey through this book writing. I'll give you some stories and excerpts about the book soon enough (if you care to know).



But anyhow wish me Happy Writing!

i sorta like

Now I lay you down to sleep
I pray that it is your soul I keep
And before you wake
I pray your soul I have preserved
And if I fail before you wake
I pray there is room for mercy on my soul

And if by chance I die before you wake
I hope you see your life in the fold of mine
Only your wings I could have rested upon
And if by chance you don't see…
I pray you feel yourself in my footsteps
Rolling through the sand for a permanent mark
That canvases the love I have for you in my heart
And if by chance you don't find them..
I pray you hear the music in my voice
That sang the world to its knees
A joyful noise unto the earth
And if by chance you don't hear…
I pray you can feel my breath all around you
With each passing of the wind
I held your life with my bare hands
And if by chance you don't see, hear, or feel me
I simply pray that before we both wake
We see forever.




you like, yes, no, maybe so. im still thinking on this one.

ahh.i must see.

i rarely get excited about new movies. but i must see this one.

The Secret Life of Bees

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"i write, because eventually i just wanna stay home all day and do
self-fulfilling, non-profit art projects."

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a proud mommie

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Brandy is Back

I really really do heart this chick amist all the forehead, and alien eyes jokes.

<Click Here To Hear The New Single>

Men

(yes this is for you)

Short ones, tall ones, big ones, fat ones, small ones, ugly ones, handsome ones, old ones, young ones.

Of all the ones…I cant stand this one. But at sometime or another they have all probably been this one.

The one that on conversation number uno thinks its okay to ask you over their house. Even if it happens to be midnight, and you just finished yawning a trillion times. Most likely even had a conversation about the fact that you had a really long day.
So I have taken it upon myself to tell you, HELL to de NAH…I don’t want to come to your house to watch a movie, to have a glass of wine, to eat dinner, or anything you can imagine up. And no, not because I want you to take me out and spend money on me…but because I would rather see my life’s mission into fruition, and don’t want to be on the 6 o’clock news as the victim of date crime.
What the heck happened to simple courting. In the words of Love Jones, “Didn’t I school you, women like it easy.” I totally second that.

Thanks, but no thanks..Men.

im only gonna say it once

I wanna answer this question, because whenever someone asks me i never have an answer.

The conversation goes a little something like this:

Tv watcher: hey, did you see that episode of the hills last night (or insert any show you wanna talk about)??

Me: nah actually I didn’t. I don’t watch tv.

Tv watcher: Well did you see that man on CNN who got stuck in the train station in New York?

Me: nah, I don’t watch tv.

Tv watcher: well you didn’t even see that episode of g’s to gents. You really don’t watch tv at all?

Me: nah, I don’t watch tv. At all

(then I just get a blank stare)

Tv watcher: yeah, I don’t really watch tv either. I just watch the hills, sometimes g’s to gents, and grey’s anatomy. Or sometimes I just watch Cnn, or watch shows over the internet. Oh and I cant miss Weeds.

(they wanna convince me they arent too different from me)

Me: Oh yeah. I don’t watch any tv, not even the shows on the internet.

(another blank stare, but this time they are looking at me like im not human)

Tv watcher: You mean to tell me you never seen Weeds before? You dont know what you are missing. Well what do you do?

(as if watching tv must be accounted for what you do in life)

Me: Ummm idk, but I don’t watch tv..and I have never even heard of Weeds.

Tv watcher: Man, you dont watch weeds. you have got to see this show.

Me: nah, i dont watch tv.

Tv watcher: oh

(and they have probably went in there mental checklist and checked off "the yeah she is weird box")


Honestly, I never have an answer for what I do..but in an attempt to answer the question I have made a list of things I do rather than watch tv:

• Obsess about what im gonna blog about
• Stare at the computer screen while I obsess about what I gonna blog about
• Read other blogs, to obsess about what im gonna blog about
• Finally obsess about what I have blogged about
• Read-Trying to get through the classics
• Work on some sort of made up art project that has nothing to do with anything
• Write a line or two for my screenplay
• Write a page of two on my second book
• Go to barnes and nobles, and just walk around. Since I know no matter where I turn there is a book around.


So I have decided that my real answer from now on is gonna be, “Some people just create, while others just watch.” So lets just guess what side im on.

"I Decided"

my new favorite tune. enjoy. (you should definitely watch it all the way through)

and i had to add this video. i just got my nails done on friday. and oh boy this comedy sketch is so accurate.

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some point in the day ill be here...along with 3 other birthday parties, and I may try to squezze in a going away pool party.
idk but Susan Miller said i will meet my soul mate today...even if i dont hell i bound to meet someone with all this.

come out and block it with me.
that is all.
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“wheresoever you go, go with all your heart.”

-confucius

Miss Independent

For the first time yesterday I heard Neyo’s song “Miss Independent”. I was immediately attracted to the words, because that’s my thing. You don’t have a song to me if your words aren’t creating some type of story, a picture of some sort, sense, or a combination of all the above. I feel like independent women have been getting a lot of slack lately about acting as if they don’t need a man, and not trying to invite someone in there life. (I know, I know you are thinking what about “I-n-d-e-p-e-n-d-e-n-t”). I'll just say no comment.

The chorus goes a little something like, “she got her own thing, and that’s why I love her.”

Because honestly I don’t need a man, I would like one, but want and need are two different things. It is not a necessity, especially if you aren’t complementing what I already have going on and plan to have later in life.

Neyo’s is so sickly in tune with women. He could only be that in tune if he himself was actually a woman, yep that’s my theory.
No let me stop, I’m really playing. But, how many men do you know who could sit down and write “To the left, to the left” ??

Yes, im hugely independent, and that was the whole reason for this. Im just glad someone can appreciate that even if they date boys.

I would have attached the song, but im at work…and that’s just a little much. Just limewire it up. Or maybe you heard the song a million days ago, and im just now hearing it. haha.

frazzled

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my mind is like on crack right now. no, not literally im not a crackhead. i just have a million thoughts going at once, and a million things to do at this very moment as i write this. im at my official job right now, but all my unofficial jobs need to be tended to as well. all the projects im working on are in there beginning stages so a lot of time has to be devoted to them. i have also decided to change schools (after i have been in college for 4yrs, great timing right), so i have to get all that paperwork straight. btw i hate paperwork, it should not take this much to get an education. i mean do you want me to get a degree or not?

this is my apologize for my 4 or 5 readers, i have been neglectful to my blog. i have been posting things, but taking the shortcut and not writing the things that are really on my mind.
just forgive me, it will be worth your reading in the end. im just trying to take care of a few things (x 100).

and i just heard Jasmine Sullivan’s other song “in love with another man”…she is one cheating, apologizing fool. right??

p.s.

I have decided to get around to adding a segment to be entitled later about my favorite people. It could be celebs, those with local status, but mostly my own personal cast members in this life of mine. In the spirit of living it thought I should honor those people who keep me going, and let them know how I feel while we are still on this side of life. So just look out for that, I have to think of a crafty presentation for this.
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Fill Me In

i know you would love to know what plays in my ipod while i contently pretend to ignore you, sometimes its nothing, but when it does play these days it sounds of this:

t.i.-"you can have whatever you like"

lykke li- "dance dance"

city high- "caramel"

sixpence- "kiss me"

keri hilson- "energy"

i have all sorts of music moods to match all my many moods.

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sharing is caring

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so they say....

i decided to share what i wrote about five minutes ago, in about five minutes. i write alll the time, but i never share it(outside of what i blog). a friend told me that was very selfish, i never thought of it that way. i never know who i could be writing for, or who it will touch and/or offend. yes i like to offend, hey sometimes its the only way people notice. but anyhow here goes.


untitled(since you arent here)

sorry i didnt want to meet over coffee
didnt want to take walks in the park
or ride bikes in the dark
just suspend the clouds
you were to make sure i flew higher

my love was there for you
before your heart was there for me
i held your hand
you followed me by
somehow you promised not to die
it was a life alive & live
3am could always be found in your eyes
a shadow vivid at 5 o'clock
it was the only day the birds did not sing
a melody full of torment
torture beyond imagined

lets take a trip to beach the sea
lets make a wave in the sky
how dare you die
before i kiss to you goodnite.
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Weekend of 808's

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I went <<Here>>, with <<Her>>, helped with <<This>>....... and snapped a few pictures along the way.










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The Boss

I had a convo with the Bff, which does not happen often since she moved to Miami, but anyhow we had to remind ourselves who was in charge. We all have those moments where we feel like we arent good enough. I heard Alicia Keys speaking once, and she was talking about the writing of her song "Superwoman". She was having one of those moments where she just felt ugly, fat, and just not good enough. She changed that energy into a beautiful song.
So in honor of my conversation I had to post my favorite "im the boss" anthem. Im sure you have heard this often, but I dont think you can hear/read this enough. I may have even posted this before...


Our greatest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our greatest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, fabulous, gorgeous, talented? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. You're playing small doesn't serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that's within us. It's not just in some of us. It's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we automatically give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fears, our presence automatically liberates others.

-Marrianne Williamson

Dont you forget it either. because im gonna let it shine.
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from brittany

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Dear Cris Monay(where did you come up with that anyway),


I think you should know that you have totally gone overboard with this blog. To the point that I am not sure who Brittany is anymore. It is beyond an obsession. You are on this thing from morning to night, and somehow you have anxiety when you dont post something daily. It is getting rather hard to be Brittany these days. Sometimes I wish you never started this blog. You live, breath, and sleep this thing, and did you realize we arent getting paid for this either.


p.s. I hope this pays off for you (us) in the long run.

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Turn Sunday Poems Into Tuesday's

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I got my Nina Simone Poem published at Associated Content.

So maybe since no one read it on Sunday, maybe you will on Tuesday.

Feeling Good: Love for Nina Simone

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"Being White In America"

I had to post this article from Associated Content. The first line reads, "For years white people have stood back, been afraid of black people, walked around black people and black people have always said we are so racist."

Im not going to even comment right now I just want you to read this >>click here<<. .
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on sundays

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i hiberinate in my room. listen to some Nina Simone. because she makes me feel like im not the only person with something to say. i think i even wrote "love for nina simone" on a sunday>>read here<<. i have lit my bergamot incense. "tulasi bergamot possess refreshing and rejuvenating qualities that can uplift the spirits. " as the box reads. all i need is a cup of green tea. and thats a perfect sunday to me. .
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The Twin and I

We did our thing yesterday..lol.

Shopping to Movies to Lenny's Bar. I took my twin to my hood(in Kennesaw), so that we could do a little 21 shopping. We made out nice, we picked nothing alike except a pair of earrings. And that came down to the twin getting the cream and gold, and I had to get the white and gold. We picked up a gentleman friend(or atleast we are destined to make him one), on the way to the movies. Step Brother was freakin hilarious...I really laughed the whole way through. Although it doesnt take much to make me laugh.
Lenny's Bar..lets just say an interesting time for now. I am not sure how to dissect what I witnessed there. So ill just plead the 5th.

and there were pictures.....

Good times indeed.

You can catch the twin here everyday all day>>Click Here<< .
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